With the threat of additional medical issues looming on the horizon, the Holy Spirit reminded me that my thoughts questioning why I may have to endure more affliction were not helpful. Instead of looking for God in the situation, I was focused on my fear of feeling physically worse than I do already. Thankfully, there is no end to the number of places I could find comfort and guidance in the Bible. My study for today included this passage:Read More »
As discussed here, the ministry of other Christians during a recent medical trial served to keep my sleep-deprived mind on Truth rather than downward-spiraling thoughts regarding my physical condition. I have continued to reflect on a particular letter I received during this time, because it contains key points that still encourage me daily.
At the end of my last post, I posed the question, “Can I be content even if I spend the rest of my days physically unable to do daily household tasks”? God has given me the opportunity to try to answer this question. My sleep deteriorated to the point that I was sleeping only 1 hour per night for several weeks, resulting in physical and mental deterioration; I felt much like Paul expresses in his second letter to the Corinthians:Read More »
Not that I speak from want, for I have learned to be content in whatever circumstances I am. I know how to get along with humble means, and I also know how to live in prosperity; in any and every circumstance I have learned the secret of being filled and going hungry, both of having abundance and suffering need. I can do all things through Him who strengthens me.
An interesting thing has happened during these years of my physical affliction; my desires have changed. At one time, I had a strong desire to go back out into the workforce once our children’s needs didn’t require me to be at home full time. I had visions of contributing to our household income so that we could live the way we thought we wanted to live. The prestige of the positions I had trained for called me to keep the pace going by striving to attain even more. Requests from customers and previous coworkers for me to return to this course stoked my pride and kept my head turned to what seemed most desirable at the time. As a result, I didn’t see the alternative, cooking and cleaning at home, as something that would be satisfying at all.
Therefore, since we have so great a cloud of witnesses surrounding us, let us also lay aside every encumbrance and the sin which so easily entangles us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of faith, who for the joy set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.
Sometimes, I find myself wondering how I can possibly serve God when I am so restricted in what I can do. It seems that there are so many needs… so many people suffering… so many who need to hear God’s Word… but my hands are tied in many ways regarding how to reach out to them. I find my physical limitations difficult to understand at times; I wonder why God would allow me to be so restricted when I am willing to serve.
No temptation has overtaken you but such as is common to man; and God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will provide the way of escape also, so that you will be able to endure it.
1 Corinthians 10:13
By no means am I suggesting that what I am about to write is all there is to glean from this passage. However, I do believe that what I experienced this morning is one application of its meaning.
You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies;
You have anointed my head with oil;
My cup overflows.
In the course of my continued early-morning walk through Psalms, I inevitably came to this beauty: Psalm 23.Read More »
Included in the requirements for a college degree was the obligatory psychology class lesson on Maslow’s hierarchy of needs. As psychology was a general education class for me and not part of my major, I must have pushed the lesson to the back of my mind. However, it was not altogether forgotten. This message in Pastor Bryce Beale’s series “Christ and No More” brought Maslow’s theory to the forefront of my mind for good purpose – to abolish it!
All block quotes are from “Stephen’s Martyrdom” by Charles Spurgeon
“To be calm amid the bewildering cry, to be confident of victory; to be still and know that God is God; to stand still with the children of Israel at the Red Sea, and see the salvation of God; this is hard, so hard that only the divine dove, the Comforter, can bring us from above the power to be so; but when once the art of being still is fully learned, what strength and bliss is in it!”
At times in my life, I have found myself angry or bitter, but seemingly unable to figure out how to “not be angry.” It just doesn’t seem to be as easy as that. However, at the conclusion of my reading of Jonathan Edwards’ message, “Charity Disposes Us Meekly to Bear the Injuries Received from Others,” I found that I was no longer angry about a situation with a doctor, and I was glad.