At the end of my last post, I commented, “Preaching truth to myself instead of listening to thoughts that cause despair is what I must do in order to be filled with joy, peace, and hope.” However, I also realize that prayer is essential in my desire to draw closer to God. Recently, my prayers have come in the form of pleading cries for relief and comfort. I know that God notices my tears as He did with Hannah (1 Samuel 1:10) and doesn’t grow weary of listening as written by David (Psalm 6:6-9). As I pray though, I find myself wondering, as David did in Psalm 13, “How long, O Lord”?
At the end of Psalm 13, David sings praise to the Lord despite his weariness from tribulation; he is able to do this because he trusts in God’s lovingkindness, and he is rejoicing in his salvation (verses 5 and 6). The song that frequently comes to my mind is “Turn Your Eyes Upon Jesus” as I battle against Satan’s lies that attempt to drown my song by barking in my ears. I want to focus on God’s lovingkindness, not Satan’s discouragement.
Jesus is the reason for my salvation. To help me rejoice in this Gift, I read Psalm 139 before bed last night and fell asleep thinking of God’s presence with me wherever I go and whatever my circumstances are. Peace kept my heart and mind as I slept well, eyes turned upon Jesus.
I remembered another song of mine in the night (Psalm 77:5); as I awoke, the words came to me with joy. I posted this song when I first started this blog, but it is poignantly more applicable to my circumstances now than it was then. Unlike Asaph in Psalm 77, I am not wondering if the Lord will reject forever (verse 7); I know that He will restore me at some point, if not in this life, then when I see Him in person. This is hope.
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Therefore many other signs Jesus also performed in the presence of the disciples, which are not written in this book; but these have been written so that you may believe that Jesus is the Christ, the Son of God; and that believing you may have life in His name.