Not that I speak from want, for I have learned to be content in whatever circumstances I am. I know how to get along with humble means, and I also know how to live in prosperity; in any and every circumstance I have learned the secret of being filled and going hungry, both of having abundance and suffering need. I can do all things through Him who strengthens me.
As my world has become smaller and smaller, I have learned to be content with fewer opportunities. The limitations of being homebound and physically challenged are many, but with each loss God has helped me to see what He wants me to do. I am now presented with an additional opportunity to learn in this way… I cannot see well enough to read or write well.
As some parts of my body are experiencing healing, I am finding that my eyes are struggling. I have spent much of my time at home studying the Bible and writing about what I’m learning. I love sharing this here with the hope of helping others learn as well. However, I can no longer process my thoughts while also trying to see what I am writing. Therefore, I will be taking a break from writing while I work with my eye doctor to see if there is a solution.
Please pray that God would help me learn to be content with this circumstance, however it progresses, and to understand how God wants me to spend my time, given that there are few things left for me to do.
Although I have difficulty seeing the written words, these from John Piper help me to see in my mind that God is teaching me about faith and hope:
The fight is a fight of faith. It’s not a fight to get out of bed; it’s a fight to rest in God. It’s not a fight to keep all the powers of youth, but to trust in the power of God. The race is run against doubt in God’s goodness and love for us. It’s a fight to stay satisfied in God despite the broken hips and lost sight and failed memory and inexplicable fatigue.
The race can and may be run flat out on your back. Paul said in 2 Timothy 4:7, “I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith.” Finishing the race means keeping faith. It’s a race against unbelief, not against aging or physical deterioration.
Those are real temptations, but the great enemy is unbelief and lost hope. What gets us across the finish line with the saints cheering and the crown of life is not legs, and it’s not hands — it’s faith and hope