It should have been a simple task. Mopping the kitchen floor after months of neglect due to illness did not seem to be a major task once I had enough energy to notice the filth. I felt good and didn’t have a problem finishing the job. It was refreshing to have a clean floor in one small space of the house and satisfying to finally accomplish something more than my own self-care. Little did I know the enormity of time that would be required to recover from this seemingly straightforward task.
Although adrenal fatigue is a controversial topic in the medical world, and people do not seem to understand it well, I am learning the realities of how this problem impacts a person on a daily basis. Years of illness followed by surgery last fall have stressed my adrenals to the point that these glands seem to have lost their ability to respond predictably to the requirements of daily life. As a result, I have no idea how much is “too much” anymore. The only way for me to know if I cross the line one day is to see how my body responds the following day, and by then it is too late. The result of crossing the line is debilitating fatigue and intestines that fail to function for several days. I find myself wishing that I knew the rules; if I just knew what they were, I could at least make an informed decision about my course of action for the day.
It occurred to me today that all of this has kindled a love for the commandments that God gives us. He drew a clear line for Adam and Eve in the Garden of Eden:
The Lord God commanded the man, saying, “From any tree of the garden you may eat freely; but from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil you shall not eat, for in the day that you eat from it you will surely die.”
God wasn’t trying to deprive Adam and Eve by telling them to do one thing and not another; He was trying to protect them from trouble. God expresses His love for us repeatedly through the words of Scripture as He gives similar counsel.
Beloved, I urge you as aliens and strangers to abstain from fleshly lusts which wage war against the soul.
1 Peter 2:11
O Timothy, guard what has been entrusted to you, avoiding worldly and empty chatter and the opposing arguments of what is falsely called “knowledge” – which some have professed and thus gone astray from the faith. Grace be with you.
1 Timothy 6:20-21
The things you have learned and received and heard and seen in me, practice these things, and the God of peace will be with you.
God clearly wants us to know what is right and what is wrong. In these verses, He also explains the reasons for doing what He commands: avoiding war against the soul, not going astray, and experiencing peace. His counsel is wise and loving and, unlike the ambiguous line of adrenal fatigue, is revealed to me
Oh, thank you, God. Thank You for loving me enough to give me Scripture. Thank You for giving me Jesus as an example of how to live Scripture. Thank You for giving me the Holy Spirit as a helper while I try to live my life within the lines you have established – lines that are for my good, lines that I have learned to love.
Your word is a lamp to my feet
And a light to my path.