I recently posted the following message on my FaceBook page: ** Coronavirus Alert ** Romans 8:28 is still in the Bible. My reason for doing so is the same as for this post. My impression is that many Christians are misled on what is important in our current situation with the coronavirus.Read More »
As I prepared to end the phone call, the salesperson said, “Be safe.” I thought this was odd since I hadn’t heard this phrase used in impersonal conversations. However, it is now common to my daily life, including the plethora of emails I receive each day that close with “Be safe.” I find myself wondering what each person is actually suggesting I do to be safe.Read More »
Surely I have composed and quieted my soul;
Like a weaned child rests against his mother,
My soul is like a weaned child within me.
In my process of being weaned, there are moments of discouragement. Falling tears leak my memory from my mind, making biblical truths difficult to recall. In order to compose and quiet my soul, I need to talk myself through what I know to be true though. A written list is helpful during these times; it reminds me of what I know to be true and prompts right thinking. Following is my list, provided for a special someone in need. A pdf version without links is provided at the end of the post for anyone desiring a printed version of truths “on hand” for those difficult moments.
It should have been a simple task. Mopping the kitchen floor after months of neglect due to illness did not seem to be a major task once I had enough energy to notice the filth. I felt good and didn’t have a problem finishing the job. It was refreshing to have a clean floor in one small space of the house and satisfying to finally accomplish something more than my own self-care. Little did I know the enormity of time that would be required to recover from this seemingly straightforward task.
My little children, I am writing these things to you so that you may not sin. And if anyone sins, we have an Advocate with the Father, Jesus Christ the righteous; and He Himself is the propitiation for our sins; and not for ours only, but also for those of the whole world.
1 John 2:1-2
After a difficult weekend that resulted in continued fatigue and brain fog at the start of the week, I was unable to focus on commentaries for the verses I was studying for the day. Instead, I closed my eyes to think about 1 John 2:1-2 and pray. Jesus’ name and the word propitiation were foremost in my awareness. Salvation was my meditation for the next hour while I praised God for this gift.
My tears have fallen frequently as I attempt to absorb the losses that keep coming. As I write, I am thinking of the dilemma that currently tests me. The vertigo I experienced following the surgery to remove my tumor has lessened significantly, but I am still unable to lie in any position except on my right side without dizziness. My right hip is complaining, making sleep more difficult. I was thinking today, “Something has to give. Either my hip has to stop hurting or I have to be able to lie in other positions. I have to sleep in order to heal and fight cancer!”
At times in my life, I have found myself angry or bitter, but seemingly unable to figure out how to “not be angry.” It just doesn’t seem to be as easy as that. However, at the conclusion of my reading of Jonathan Edwards’ message, “Charity Disposes Us Meekly to Bear the Injuries Received from Others,” I found that I was no longer angry about a situation with a doctor, and I was glad.
God’s patience with me not only causes me to want to imitate Him, but it also creates in me a desire to express my gratitude to Him by obediently being patient with others. This is the second point made by Jonathan Edwards in his sermon on how to meekly bear with others with a loving and forgiving heart.Read More »
Following my study of Hebrews 12:1-2 this morning, I prayed this and wanted to share it here with the hope that someone else will benefit:
Dear Father… Please help me to be able to endure today’s portion of the race that You have set before me; I know that I need Your help in order to do so. Looking at my race causes my knees to tremble, because it looks very difficult to me. I’m not strong enough to continue to bear these physical infirmities myself. Therefore, I am setting my eyes on You, the author and finisher of my faith. Please keep me steadfast on the straight course, preserving me from wandering onto paths that would make my race even more difficult. I have joy when I look to You even though this cross that I am called to bear would compel me to faint in my own strength. Thank You for setting the perfect example of how to bear a cross patiently and joyfully without fainting. I pray that You would help me to persevere until my course is finished, and I thank You for the love that promises to do so. In Jesus’ name, I pray. Amen.
Therefore, since we have so great a cloud of witnesses surrounding us, let us also lay aside every encumbrance and the sin which so easily entangles us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of faith, who for the joy set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.
A few days after my recent complicated migraine, I continued to reflect on what I had learned. I accepted that God had put me in a position that seemed limiting to me, but I also recognized He was working good in it, whether I could see the good or not. The Holy Spirit brought truth to my mind, encouraging me to endure. However, even though my mind was focused on what I knew to be true, my heart broke one evening.