My tears have fallen frequently as I attempt to absorb the losses that keep coming. As I write, I am thinking of the dilemma that currently tests me. The vertigo I experienced following the surgery to remove my tumor has lessened significantly, but I am still unable to lie in any position except on my right side without dizziness. My right hip is complaining, making sleep more difficult. I was thinking today, “Something has to give. Either my hip has to stop hurting or I have to be able to lie in other positions. I have to sleep in order to heal and fight cancer!”
At times in my life, I have found myself angry or bitter, but seemingly unable to figure out how to “not be angry.” It just doesn’t seem to be as easy as that. However, at the conclusion of my reading of Jonathan Edwards’ message, “Charity Disposes Us Meekly to Bear the Injuries Received from Others,” I found that I was no longer angry about a situation with a doctor, and I was glad.
God’s patience with me not only causes me to want to imitate Him, but it also creates in me a desire to express my gratitude to Him by obediently being patient with others. This is the second point made by Jonathan Edwards in his sermon on how to meekly bear with others with a loving and forgiving heart.Read More »
Let all bitterness and wrath and anger and clamor and slander be put away from you, along with all malice. Be kind to one another, tender-hearted, forgiving each other, just as God in Christ also has forgiven you.
There was a day recently when I was feeling inclined toward bitterness regarding a particular doctor’s ill-treatment of two of our children. My babies have suffered greatly for a long time while seeking help for a medical issue, help that hasn’t been helpful after all. Despite objective evidence to the contrary, this doctor insisted that the prescriptions he ordered were doing what he said they do. Even the ineffectiveness of doses beyond the standards would not sway his steadfast opinion that his methods were correct.